Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Restoring my faith

Just when I had decided that I had come to a point in my life when it was time to start over as far as friendships were concerned, I got a helpful and touching reminder of just who my friends really are. They are not necessarily the people I spent my college years hanging out with endlessly. Most of those people, I am sorry to say, have very little in common with me now. This is not to say that my life is any better or worse than theirs, it is just that we exist on different planes of reality. I am in the parent-of-twins-struggling-to-make-do-on-one-teacher's-salary plane. It's not a very well-populated plane, but it is where I am at the moment, and I wouldn't change it.

The people who I now count as friends aren't necessarily on my plane, either, but they don't seem as wrapped up in their own stuff as a lot of us tend to get. These people actually return (or *gasp*) initiate phone calls and keep in touch with me. There are others out there who I suppose I could maintain contact with, but the maintenance would be all on me. And, frankly, raising two kids and trying to keep from being buried alive in diapers, toys, and bills takes a lot of my energy. Just getting out of the house is exhausting. And don't pretend that since you have a dog you know exactly how I feel. Nothing against dogs, understand; it's just that dogs aren't people, and children are, no matter how you feel about them.


Blogger Tracey said...


I read your blog! See there are people out there who might read it. I found it because you have Laurie Berkner listed in your music. She rocks!

I have experienced the same problems with friends and keeping up the contact. I've been where you are at and I've also let go of that and just tried to maintain as much as I can...with little expectations. It's a happy medium.

I'm not a knitter, but would love to learn.

Check out my blog if you feel so inclined...I, too, often feel that no one reads it.

Take care and happy blogging!

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